Heavy Hearts

Our hearts are so heavy, I don't know where to begin. Things come to mind like "We do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places." Ephesians 6:12 The battles isn't ours to win! Anyone going through this process will I am sure agree that Satan doesn't want these kids to come to a Christian home. A home where they will hear the gospel and possibly become Christians. He knows they are no threat to him, when they are stuffed away in an orphanage.

We got word today that the little girl we so want to adopt will not be available for us unless God performs a miracle. She has a five year old brother that apparently no one was aware of until we asked last week. Once we got over the shock of that, we found out that we would not be able to adopt him because Ukraine has a law that you can't be more that 45 years older than the child. Kevin happens to be one year older than that. They also will not split up a sibling group. The kids are in two different orphanages. I am not sure they have had much contact with each other so we are hoping that the authorities will consider splitting them. We have done everything we can to afford two adoptions, three would take another miracle. We were also told you don't want to adopt D anyway, she is "slow" and "doesn't do well in school". We had her in our home last summer for three weeks. We did notice she was quiet, shy and fragile. She responded well to love and attention. We don't care that she may not be an "A" student. She is perfect in our eyes. Our last hope and our prayer is that maybe the government will consider her "special needs" and allow her to have a family. A five year old has a much better chance of being adopted than an eight year old with special needs. We do want what is best for her and her brother. We are waiting now and praying that God will direct us and open and close doors. We will walk through this journey without fear because HE WILL WIN THE BATTLE! If we aren't the right family, please pray God will find a family willing and able to take "D" and her brother.

Pam